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Finally, a Ray of Sunshine!
Posted by Ashleigh
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I'm so glad I only have happy news to report today! It's been so long since so much good has happened in my life at the same time.
Well, last night I was up until 5:30am finishing up late assignments to hand in. Since the possibility of acceptance to Guelph has been dangled in front of me, I'm chasing after it furiously, which means I need an average of at least 70% to get into the arts program I want. I've snapped out of the "Who cares if I get bad grades? It's just going to be misery for the next four years anyway, no matter how hard I work." phase and snapped into the "If I work my ass off and manage to end the year with a good average, I have a chance at happiness next year!" phase. I've been working like mad to try to bring my grades up. The only bad thing about it was that I had to get up at 6:30am to go to my first class. I debated whether or not to tough it out, but then decided that I was just going to skip my morning class and sleep. I needed to have a clear head for my afternoon class, with enough energy left over to prepare for Chris' visit tomorrow when I got back from school and I knew I'd just collapse and get nothing done if I didn't take the break.
Oh? I didn't tell you about Chris' visit? Well, sorry. All the stress has kind of been at the forefront of my mind lately and I haven't had much of an opportunity to be excited when I felt so sick with nerves all the time, but now I'm in great spirits and will tell you all about it! We've actually had this planned for a while now. I'm taking him out for his birthday tomorrow to go see I, Claudia being performed by Kristen Thomson at the Young Centre for the Performing Arts. We both love seeing plays and since I'm in a drama studies class, I get to go see a lot of plays for really reduced prices, thanks to my professor who pulls strings and always gets huge discounts for her students. I always take Chris with me to go see the plays. During the school year, he'd take the bus from Kitchener to Toronto and stay the night at my grandma's in Toronto before going back the next day, but this time, he's getting dropped off by his mom at Yorkdale. His birthday's on the 14th, but this was the only chance I had to see this play with Chris and apparently it's completely amazing. It's a one-hander with masks like in traditional Greek theatre and Kristen Thomson is not only the actor, but the playwright as well.
The play itself looks like it's going to be fantastic, but that's not the highlight of tomorrow. The highlight is seeing Chris after so long of being apart, and being able to give him a really special 20th birthday outting. Unfortunately, applying to Guelph zapped my funds so I'm running out of money. I have 117 dollars left, but I need 96 dollars for my metro pass. Maybe I'll forgo a metro pass this month and treat Chris to a nice dinner, anyway. I had originally planned to take him to a nice restaurant and eat a proper meal before the play, then after the play, to come back to my grandma's house and give him his card, presents and spend the rest of the night cuddling on the couch with a movie in our pajamas. Just a nice, peaceful, quiet evening after the hustle and bustle and excitement of downtown Toronto. I thought it'd be perfect for his birthday, but I soon realized that I couldn't afford it after applying to Guelph. I couldn't even afford wrapping paper and a card, so I made both of them with printer paper, tape and Trinity's scented markers. I felt so awful for not being able to take him somewhere nice to eat, I prepared a special surprise for him to try and make it up to him. I can't say what the surprise is in case he reads this before he gets here tomorrow, but I tried really hard to do a good job on it and I hope it turns out okay (and don't give away what the surprise is in your comment, Alex!). I will reveal the surprise after it has been revealed to Chris. I still think I might sacrifice my metro pass to buy him a nice dinner, though. It's only the last month before school officially ends for me and I won't be using the pass from the 22nd to 26th, and then not again until the 31st because of exams. It'd probably just be cheaper to buy weekly passes or day passes or tokens or something like that, and Chris deserves a nice birthday dinner with his girlfriend. He's been so stressed lately.
I'm so excited! I've been preparing since I got back from school! I made his card (I still have to write in it), then put together his surprise. I need to wait until tomorrow morning to finish it off. Then I made the wrapping paper for his presents and wrapped his gifts. Then I took a nice long shower and got myself all cleaned up and ready to go out tomorrow. I'm planning on putting together a semi-dressy outfit for the evening out, to try to enhance the specialness of the occasion and I'm going to make sure my room is spotless and suitable for Chris to sleep in tomorrow. My room always ends up turning into the guest room when he visits, but I don't mind. My grandma's couch is really comfortable and I get to watch TV until I fall asleep when I'm in the living room.
There's a small chance Chris may have to either meet me at school or come with me to school in the morning, depending on what time he gets here, because I need to hand in those assignments I was up until 5:30am last night doing, but I don't think he's going to end up coming with me. His mother says she'll drop him off before four, but knowing Chris' mother, that could be anything from 8:00am to she changed her mind and decided she didn't feel like taking him anymore. I'm not holding my breath, but I will be so upset if this doesn't work out because of her. She's ruined occasions for us before in the past and this time, if we do not get there by 7:30pm sharp, we won't be let in. It's too distracting for the lone actress on stage to have people coming and going throughout the show. I always get extremely nervous whenever I'm forced to depend on Chris' mom for something important.
I also want to make sure I plan everything right. I'm so clumsy and useless at just about everything in life, which means a lot of dates I plan end up turning into catastrophes. One time, Chris and I went to see a play and it turned out so horribly, we fought and yelled the entire way back. It was awful. I want to make sure everything goes smoothly this time, so I'm meticulously planning our route there and every single twist and turn. I'm just nervous because I'll have to plan the timing on the fly, thanks to Chris' mom's lovely, detailed answer of "before four", which I can't even take seriously at all because the words came out of her mouth.
I'm so excited, but so anxious at the same time. I really want to make tomorrow special for him and make him feel appreciated and loved after all the stress he's been through.
Oh, and I got an email from the OUAC, saying they received my payment. YAY! The website's even letting me review and change my application online, so I'm hoping that means that Guelph also got my application either today or yesterday. The fact that the OUAC got my payment on time eliminates a good chunk of the stress, but I won't be completely in the clear until Guelph sends me an email, saying they've received my application. All I have to do after that is work my ass off at York and hope it's good enough for Guelph to accept me. Also, there's a bit of a confusion with the payment (I think). My bank statement says 185 dollars was deducted from my account, but I only payed them 178 dollars. Chris says he thinks the extra money is the fee for sending a money order. He's probably right, but I'd just like to double-check the numbers at the bank on Monday, just to be sure.
Anyway, I'm very tired and need to finish preparing for Chris' big day tomorrow morning, so goodnight. I hope you enjoyed reading a blog entry in much higher spirits than is my usual blogging mood.
Well, last night I was up until 5:30am finishing up late assignments to hand in. Since the possibility of acceptance to Guelph has been dangled in front of me, I'm chasing after it furiously, which means I need an average of at least 70% to get into the arts program I want. I've snapped out of the "Who cares if I get bad grades? It's just going to be misery for the next four years anyway, no matter how hard I work." phase and snapped into the "If I work my ass off and manage to end the year with a good average, I have a chance at happiness next year!" phase. I've been working like mad to try to bring my grades up. The only bad thing about it was that I had to get up at 6:30am to go to my first class. I debated whether or not to tough it out, but then decided that I was just going to skip my morning class and sleep. I needed to have a clear head for my afternoon class, with enough energy left over to prepare for Chris' visit tomorrow when I got back from school and I knew I'd just collapse and get nothing done if I didn't take the break.
Oh? I didn't tell you about Chris' visit? Well, sorry. All the stress has kind of been at the forefront of my mind lately and I haven't had much of an opportunity to be excited when I felt so sick with nerves all the time, but now I'm in great spirits and will tell you all about it! We've actually had this planned for a while now. I'm taking him out for his birthday tomorrow to go see I, Claudia being performed by Kristen Thomson at the Young Centre for the Performing Arts. We both love seeing plays and since I'm in a drama studies class, I get to go see a lot of plays for really reduced prices, thanks to my professor who pulls strings and always gets huge discounts for her students. I always take Chris with me to go see the plays. During the school year, he'd take the bus from Kitchener to Toronto and stay the night at my grandma's in Toronto before going back the next day, but this time, he's getting dropped off by his mom at Yorkdale. His birthday's on the 14th, but this was the only chance I had to see this play with Chris and apparently it's completely amazing. It's a one-hander with masks like in traditional Greek theatre and Kristen Thomson is not only the actor, but the playwright as well.
The play itself looks like it's going to be fantastic, but that's not the highlight of tomorrow. The highlight is seeing Chris after so long of being apart, and being able to give him a really special 20th birthday outting. Unfortunately, applying to Guelph zapped my funds so I'm running out of money. I have 117 dollars left, but I need 96 dollars for my metro pass. Maybe I'll forgo a metro pass this month and treat Chris to a nice dinner, anyway. I had originally planned to take him to a nice restaurant and eat a proper meal before the play, then after the play, to come back to my grandma's house and give him his card, presents and spend the rest of the night cuddling on the couch with a movie in our pajamas. Just a nice, peaceful, quiet evening after the hustle and bustle and excitement of downtown Toronto. I thought it'd be perfect for his birthday, but I soon realized that I couldn't afford it after applying to Guelph. I couldn't even afford wrapping paper and a card, so I made both of them with printer paper, tape and Trinity's scented markers. I felt so awful for not being able to take him somewhere nice to eat, I prepared a special surprise for him to try and make it up to him. I can't say what the surprise is in case he reads this before he gets here tomorrow, but I tried really hard to do a good job on it and I hope it turns out okay (and don't give away what the surprise is in your comment, Alex!). I will reveal the surprise after it has been revealed to Chris. I still think I might sacrifice my metro pass to buy him a nice dinner, though. It's only the last month before school officially ends for me and I won't be using the pass from the 22nd to 26th, and then not again until the 31st because of exams. It'd probably just be cheaper to buy weekly passes or day passes or tokens or something like that, and Chris deserves a nice birthday dinner with his girlfriend. He's been so stressed lately.
I'm so excited! I've been preparing since I got back from school! I made his card (I still have to write in it), then put together his surprise. I need to wait until tomorrow morning to finish it off. Then I made the wrapping paper for his presents and wrapped his gifts. Then I took a nice long shower and got myself all cleaned up and ready to go out tomorrow. I'm planning on putting together a semi-dressy outfit for the evening out, to try to enhance the specialness of the occasion and I'm going to make sure my room is spotless and suitable for Chris to sleep in tomorrow. My room always ends up turning into the guest room when he visits, but I don't mind. My grandma's couch is really comfortable and I get to watch TV until I fall asleep when I'm in the living room.
There's a small chance Chris may have to either meet me at school or come with me to school in the morning, depending on what time he gets here, because I need to hand in those assignments I was up until 5:30am last night doing, but I don't think he's going to end up coming with me. His mother says she'll drop him off before four, but knowing Chris' mother, that could be anything from 8:00am to she changed her mind and decided she didn't feel like taking him anymore. I'm not holding my breath, but I will be so upset if this doesn't work out because of her. She's ruined occasions for us before in the past and this time, if we do not get there by 7:30pm sharp, we won't be let in. It's too distracting for the lone actress on stage to have people coming and going throughout the show. I always get extremely nervous whenever I'm forced to depend on Chris' mom for something important.
I also want to make sure I plan everything right. I'm so clumsy and useless at just about everything in life, which means a lot of dates I plan end up turning into catastrophes. One time, Chris and I went to see a play and it turned out so horribly, we fought and yelled the entire way back. It was awful. I want to make sure everything goes smoothly this time, so I'm meticulously planning our route there and every single twist and turn. I'm just nervous because I'll have to plan the timing on the fly, thanks to Chris' mom's lovely, detailed answer of "before four", which I can't even take seriously at all because the words came out of her mouth.
I'm so excited, but so anxious at the same time. I really want to make tomorrow special for him and make him feel appreciated and loved after all the stress he's been through.
Oh, and I got an email from the OUAC, saying they received my payment. YAY! The website's even letting me review and change my application online, so I'm hoping that means that Guelph also got my application either today or yesterday. The fact that the OUAC got my payment on time eliminates a good chunk of the stress, but I won't be completely in the clear until Guelph sends me an email, saying they've received my application. All I have to do after that is work my ass off at York and hope it's good enough for Guelph to accept me. Also, there's a bit of a confusion with the payment (I think). My bank statement says 185 dollars was deducted from my account, but I only payed them 178 dollars. Chris says he thinks the extra money is the fee for sending a money order. He's probably right, but I'd just like to double-check the numbers at the bank on Monday, just to be sure.
Anyway, I'm very tired and need to finish preparing for Chris' big day tomorrow morning, so goodnight. I hope you enjoyed reading a blog entry in much higher spirits than is my usual blogging mood.
